Hi Dad I’ve not written on here for a while and Im missing you so much so I thought i’d come on and write to you. Writing on here seems to be the only thing that helps. My heart aches just as much as always thinking of you. I try and look for the positives but I forever feel like a part of me is missing.. which it is. I know i’m just like you, i stick out like a sore thumb because i have your personality but if you were here, I wouldn’t feel so lonely. I’m just having a pity party, I never ever feel enough at the minute. I just wish someone would care about me as much as I care about them. I genuinely appreciate and treasure all my close friends and family but sometimes i just feel like everything’s one sided. Anyway.... I’ve got a new job!! I love it and it’s such a good opportunity, I’m so lucky to have found it. I’m almost finished at college, I start uni in September and I’m so excited for that. I’ve started the gym with mills so i’m feeling so much better just for having the routine. Everything’s good, i’m just so grateful to have some normality I actually started to lose my mind during lock down. Grandad and Christine are well, I saw them the other week. Uncle Christian and Auntie Michelle and family are all well also. We are planning a meal for my 18th which will be lovely. Can you believe i’m going to be 18?! doesn’t feel right, i remember you singing me to sleep as if it was yesterday :( I love you so so much Dad. I’ll be back soon, sleep tight. God bless. all my love, Mais xxxx